Some of you know me on a personal level, and some don't.However, even if you have never met me, you might have emailed me at some point and then, I might have responded to your email. Sometimes , I have even emailed you and we became friends...And if I had the opportunity to tell you about my family, I would have told you that I come from a big family. I had two brothers. And my younger brother Ajmal(30 years old),who passed away on Thursday evening, was the angel who always had a smile on his face.
He had diabetes but he was unaware of it. He also never complained about any pains and aches.. On wednesday, he was not well, he was taken to the hospital, then was shortly after diagnosed as having diabetes, then was admitted. Within 24 hours, he passed away and I know he is now resting in peace, by the grace of God, Ameen!He passed away on 29/12/11 at 07:15pm in Mauritius.
I was very close to him and I will tell you one thing, he never ever said NO to me, ever! Whatever I needed, or wanted, no matter the time of the day or night, he will be right there for me. He was gentle and his smile would have melt your heart. I remember him as someone who always , always wanted peace around him. And even if while I was talking to him, and I was in the wrong, he would very kindly say to me: Tas, let's forget it and let's move on...he would say it with a smile or a big laugh...and I would end up saying: okay but you know I was right, okay? He would nod and say: okay, you were right!....He also was very funny, would have a nickname for us and his laugh is resounding in my head...He was gone too quick, too soon, but above all, too suddenly.
My life can never be the same anymore. But, I know ,God knows best. There is a reason he was gone now, and God knows it ,so we must accept it. But , it is hard - and everyday I am praying for God to give me strength to accept it.
Anyway, just wanted to let you all know that I might be away for a while from blog land and tutorials. I feel an emptiness inside of me and I really do not know how am I ever going to enjoy crafting again ...if he was here, would he have wanted me to do what I love the most? Yes absolutely, he would not be happy that I was even contemplating stopping crafting as I really do not have any inspirations. So, bearing this in mind, I am going to give myself a little rest and will come back when I feel ready.
Also, the shock was so rough that I had a panic attack on the evening of the funeral. I was treated for shock and has been advised to have complete bed rest. I know that I must look after myself and those who are left behind now, need each other to carry on, and support each other.
To all my family members, let's be strong and support each other and we must remember the good times we all shared with this Angel who does not belong here , in this world, because that is why he was an Angel, he belonged in Paradise. Ameen.
Thank you everyone for all your support. I am sorry if I have not replied to any text or email or returned any phonecalls....Please bear with me, I will get back to each and everyone as soon as I am able to.
May you rest in Peace my darling Ajmal,We all miss you terribly and we love you.