Hey friends!
How are you all keeping? Today, it has been raining since the morning. I woke up thinking it was really early but was horrified to see it was around ten am already! It has been raining throughout the day and I love this weather. I am not being sarcastic, I truely love this kinda weather. I do enjoy summer, but, I cannot stand it if it was summer all the time,just like back home, where you have mostly summer. So that is why I say UK is good for me.
I love the fact that I can just chill at home and do not feel under pressure that 'oh the weather is great, lets go out'...I say 'pressure' coz some people always want to go out. I don't.
Anyway, time is flying and soon, it will be that time of the year to move back to the old school, old but new school. I am both excited but also dreading the packing up and unpacking from one site to the other.... and I have some plans coming up soon, so , really, there are many things lined up for the coming weeks.
Of course, I will try and fit in my crafts so that I can live as you already know that, if I do not craft, I am like half dead. I was talking about how dark it was in the tunnel I found myself over the last few months...I can finally see some lights, though, quite far, I know they are there and I will get to them sometimes in the near future, so this gives me all the energy I need to keep going. Life is hard and challenging, but I am all up for it. My husband says I am a fighter...okay, fine, I agree! I fight for my right and I go and get it when I know it is 'good' for me.
Anyway, just checking in to say I am here and I am happy to just go with the flow.
Email me when you can and don't be a stranger, share your blogs with me too.
Tassy
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Posted at 04:59 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
Friends!!!
It's been long since I had the time to have a Tassy's chit chat! Sometimes,I feel as though, I am treading along, quietly on my road, then suddenly a curb comes and what I see around the curb either makes me smile or totally shock me...This is exactly what happened to me a few months ago...around the curb came something totally unexpected whereby, I knew, I have no choice but to go through it until the curb is over and the road is straight again.
Basically, I have been put in a situation where I had no choice but to work and work and work.No time to play at all.In the swing of the moment, I did not stop to think about how I was going to manage my new schedule , I just dived into it.
Then soon after, I realised, If I do not plan how I am going to deal with my current situaion, then I will drown,so I laid out a timetable, so that I have a clear outlook of what lies ahead each week. I felt so much better when I have done that,as it gave me a little bit of time for myself too. I included gym as well but trust me , this is the hardest part of my journey. I get home and then out again to the gym which is only couple of mins to my house, but, but, but, I feel so tired by the end of the day that , walking on the treadmill feels like a punishment, rather than something I enjoy, lol. But I do it as , it is indeed a punishment for eating some junks here and there. Sometimes, my intention is very good.I start a healthy eating plan/diet which will last about a week or sometimes two weeks, then one day, I know that I am going to buy some fruits at the stall , but on my way, I see chocolates, I see fish and chips(fat chips which will leave an everlasting impression on me in terms of fats and cholesterol)...I see so many things which distract me from my goal of buying fruits to make a smoothie fr breakfast. I stop to buy my junks, then thought, this is the last day I am doing this, so whats the point of a healthy breakfast.....then after Ive had my junks, I feel horrible and decide to start this famous diet which should last for ever...
You see, it takes only one slip , one day of breaking this healthy routine to just go down dark route again of unhealthy eating.
But, then, I start again....So anyway, where was I? Yeah, I was telling you about my time table.I have also started to plan my meal of the week...and now I have a meal of the month plan. Friends, I recommend this for any woman who works full time, this is just fantastic. I do all my shopping before hand, and I do not have to think about what I am going to cook as it is on my plan. I stick to it and everything I need to make it, they will be ready in my cupboard. I feel already that I have gained more time by doing this.....Hold on a sec, am I the only one who happens to find out of a meal plan , at this point in my life? I have a feeling that I am getting all excited over something, other women knew ages ago...so please dont roll your eyes at me, as I seriously didn't do this before. I used to sit down at work during my lunch time, trying to figure out what to cook that night, and trying even harder to think if I already have the ingredients! never worked, always ended up buying more than I need.But now, it works perfectly well for me.Thank God for this idea(and if you did know this before, why you never told me?).
Anyway, that's that. I sadly will be dropping out of Stampin Up.Yeah, thats right, I will not be a demo anymore.I didn't make up my quarterly minimum.I am actually very sad about this.But hey, I have tried, and I know I did try.With so much going on this is the last thing I need....I wonder if you can sign up as a demo again after a while!(grin!)
Right , I am off now and hopefully will catch up with you all very soon.
Tassy
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Posted at 10:40 AM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
What can I say?Ramadan came and went....And I have managed to keep my fasts during the first weeks but then, my sugar level problems arose and I have missed a few.But, all in all, I tried my best to make the most of this auspicious and spiritual month.
However, I had the Eid I never had before, in a very negative way.
My nephew(brother's son) who is nearly two, had a terrible accident and was admitted in the ICU unit at the hospital on Friday.That totally broke my heart and soul.I was not able to control my emotions and went into a shut down mode.It is so hard to go through this while being away from my family, so hard. I really cannot understand those who say: i feel sorry for you but yeah, what can you do, life must go on! How dare people try to control my feelings? How could people say that? is it because it is not their own blood?
Anyway, right now, little boy is out of danger but is still admitted at the hospital to go through intensive care.Pray for my little boy, whom I haven't met yet since I haven't been home since he was born but who has stolen my heart from the very first day I set eyes on him on my facebook, where I see him grow everyday.
Life is not the same anymore, and probably will never be the same for my brother and his wife, or even my parents.(and mine...).
That's all from me for now...I thank all of you who stood by me in this difficult time and I do appreciate having friends like you around me, I feel blessed.
Lotsa love and hugs,
Tassy
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Posted at 10:31 PM | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBack (0)
Hey everyone!
I have been back to work today!yaaayyyy! Who am I kidding! Who likes to go back to work!
No serioulsy, I felt rather good to be back at work, have a routine.It sounds so weird though but because I have been through such a rough time lately, I am just glad to have a 'normal' life, to get up in the morning and have a plan ahead, which is work.
Anyway, we are finally talking about moving back to the old school which was renovating.I am looking forward to go back to the renovated place. I have never liked the school we are camping at , at the moment.There is something gloomy and dull about the school. Our department is bigger here though.So we know that when we go back to the old school(new), our department will not have the same priviledge in terms of sizes and number of offices we have now.
Anyway, I received my Hero Arts cling stamp which I won over at the Hero Arts group on Flickr! yaaay! It is so beautiful and I cant wait to take a picture to show you guys but, my camera broke, remember?!So, I will not be able to do so anytime soon. I am thinking of getting a new camera but this time , I will get a small one with about 10 megapixel, small enough to fit in my bag anytime I am going out.I prefer it this way.
Something really bugged me today and I just cannot work my head around it. But, I guess , I cannot expect to have a 'worry' free life...it would be boring anyway!
Bye for now and speak to you all soon...I am uploading my promotional video and it is taking a bit long.Gosh, how I hate to look at myself in a video! How I hate to listen to my very own voice! How weird is that!
Ok I better stop here, and good night all!
Take care
Tassy
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Posted at 09:12 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
Hello there!
How are you guys doing?Good I hope!!It seems that nobody really read my Chitchat Lounge.Hahaha, this is the amazing thing with typepad, you can create pages and pages and keep each page for a specific task and this one is my everything-and-anything goes page.So, if ever you are reading this, brace up for lots of unnecessary information which might give you a headache or even might make you feel dizzy right after you have read it, and you might not even understand the point of me writing them, but hey, today I am going to write as though, nobody ever, ever going to read this post.
Im going to start off with my sister moving out. Yeah, she was staying in the same house as myself, plus two other 'aliens'.I am not going to write any names since, Im the blogger and my family might not want to see their names written all over my 'page'...so I will keep them as anonymous as I can..but will replace their names with stuffs! Anyway, where was I? Yeah so, she moved out as she has got a wonderful opportunity elsewhere.All was fine and I was like: yeah yeah, its so great, im so happy for ya and stuffs! And I am! But, when she was gone, I realised how 'unrealistic' the whole situation seemed!I mean, I am so used to have her around, to talk to her ect....My husband, which I will call, from now on, Mr Bee(he is always, always so busy), is not somebody who can sit down and listen to me as I talk a lot.When I say a lot, I mean it. My sister used to...She used to listen to everything I talk about and we used to share a lot of things.But when She left, I felt an emptiness around me, it is weird to explain because, I never used to spend ALL my times with her as I spend loads of time by myself, in my room. But, yeah,I miss her like hell. But, what can I do right?This seperation would have come one day or the other as I wouldn't be living in a shared house for like, EVER!
Now, one of the other two 'aliens' is moving out tomorrow. WE already have a new tenant in, and he is now living in the room my sister used to stay. And now when the other 'alien' moves out, there another guy moving in.This is a massive 4 bedroom house, but, my house mates are all men! Okay im going to be brutally honest and say that,I always used to believe that it is easier living with 'males' than 'females'. Men usually do not fuss about things, and they just get on with stuffs, hardly ever ask questions. Like, really, perfect housemates! lol. Since I was at Uni, I was sharing my flat and I have loads of experience living with people. And girls are hard work! They fuss about things and pay attention to small details. So, yeah, on one hand, Im glad that now, I am the only 'Crazy' person in the house. But on the other hand, I feel even more 'secluded'. And , nobody is hardly there.They all work long hours and I don't see anyone.This house is like, the quietest it has ever been. I used to whine about how much I like peace and quiet, now, its more like a cemetary! pfff!
Anyway, this is one thing.The next thing is , Mr Bee is Mr Bee. He is not that bothered about the whole thing and , he feels he has found new friends, and he is even more happy. I like him to be happy anyway. Mr Bee is also starting a new job so he is overwhelmed with preparations for his new jobs which leaves me feeling even more, lonely. I can handle loneliness, I have spent a lot of time at Uni, being my myself, or even at my parent's house, or even in law's house, but it is the first time that loneliness is getting to me. I need some kind of motivation, so that I embrace my new found life in a more positive light. Ahhh!
Next is the fact that, I am feeling like a balloon today. I have started to fast for the month of Ramadan and I have hardly eaten a thing, yet, I look like as though I am putting on more weight. My clothes are too tight for me and I feel absolutely bloated! I feel down, depressed and unmotivated. All of these are due to my hormonal disbalance.When on earth will the doctor prescribed something for me which would regulate all of these, im so sick and tired of this situation and on a day like this, I barely have the energy to think that everything will be okay!
Now, today , for the first time in weeks, the weather is gloomy and it is slightly cold! At least one good thing to look forward to! I hear you say , whaaat! well yeah, I like this kind of weather,it is perfect to stay curled up with a book, on a day where I cannot face anyone! But to be honest, even on a day I am perfectly happy, I would rather have this kinda day! Mr Bee says I am weird, so maybe I am afterall.
Okay ranting over...now some updates regarding my online classes....Did I mention online classes to you anway? No I havent, so how can I talk about updates? huh! craziness!
I will be having an Art journal Workshop online classes very soon...I have had so much trouble loading them up so I am hoping to have them all ready to go by tomorrow but I am not sure as I have about 6 videos and each has taken about one hour to be published on my PC , then about 7 hours to be published on Blip tv! So, you can imagine.I have already published about 4 of them....So way to go.
I will also have some blog candy coming so stay tuned!
And over and out,
Tassy
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Posted at 05:56 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
Wot's up guys? I've been clearing up my room since this morning as I've got a new bed base to put in today. I will finally have some storage but I am not sure whether if its a good idea or not...so I was trying to really, as in really clear my room today and throw /or give away things I will not use. As far as crafty stuffs are concerned, there are things I will never use, so I might do a blog candy? Oh yeah, its so hard to part with my crafts thats why I have never done one! But seriously, I should, really!
Anyway , while clearing things away , I found many things, like photos, letters, cards....and some got me thinking and I went right back on the day I was getting married.In the picture, I looked as though, I knew exactly what was happening, like, I was so ready for this, hahaha!I got married when I was , what? 25? That's not too young for a woman,I think! However, now I realise, little did I know , what marriage is all about. Marriage is not so simple, as sometimes people try to portray. It involves a lot of 'things' and one of them is 'compromises'.....If you cannot compromise with your partner, then , trust me , there always will be arguments and stuffs. Anyway, six years down the line, do I now know what marriage is all about? Naah! but who cares, you live and learn.That's what I do, live and learn. I guess you never ever really know the person, until you have lived long enough with him or her,long enough is like 100 years! lol.
Then I was looking at how slim I was, oh yeah! What happned, huh? Im not going to ponder about this, Im just going to settle with the fact that I have issues and I am going to blame it all on these issues. They are facts anyway, hormonal issues do make you fat! Don't try and deny that, okay.
Now, I am nearly done but I now would love to be able to just chill for a while but I think I better hurry up so that when my husband comes back from work, he might feel sorry for me and decides to put the bed frame today itself. But he might also say to leave it until the week end. Im too impatient to wait until the week end! We'll see. If I get things done tonight then at least tomorrow I will be free and I can probably cook some nice food...what's on the menu for tomorrow? Not sure! But I am so feeling for some 'Haleem' as my cousin from SA spoke to me today and mentioned that! And now all I can think of is this !
Anyway, catch up with you all soon....by the way, dreading day is coming up very soon...if you follow me on twitter you will know what I am talking about!so if u wanna know, better start stalking me on twitter!
LAterrz
Tassy
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Posted at 04:56 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
Hey guys! Wots up with you all? Its been so quiet around here lately huh!I am still busy with loads of stuffs. And soon , school will resume again(I work in a school by the way, I dont GO to school!)..
Anyway, I am now observing fasts(to abstain from eating and drinking - anything) which starts from sunrise and ends at sunset and this will be going on for one month which is the Holy month of Ramadan.However this is only the physical aspect of Ramadan, there is also the spiritual aspect which is very important.This allows you to reconnect spiritually, to re-evaluate your life, your purpose in life, to abstain from any bad deeds, lies, gossips.This is intended to help you with self discipline, self restraint and generosity. I know that , in our daily lives, this is how we should live anyway but sometimes, we as human beings, we err, we forget! So Ramadan is that ring of the bell to remind you about all these, and hopefully you will maintain the right path even after Ramadan is long gone.
I have got a few projects lined up to share with you as even though I will be away, busy with work, Ramadan and the rest, I will try to post the projects I have already.
It is also a month of forgiveness so, can I seize this opportunity to ask for forgiveness to anybody I might have hurt intentionally or unintentionally.And speak to you soon,
Lotsa love and kisses,
Tassy
Posted at 07:02 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
What a beautiful day! The weather is just perfect today in the UK. Love it when it is like this, not too sunny, not too cold, a light breeze, not warm but not cold...you get the idea right?
I am at home relaxing today and , gosh I need this break where I totally can chill and do nothing if I want to. However, I have a feeling I have to cook....what can I make today? I said I have a feeling because I haven't been around in the kitchen much lately and my partner decided to take over.He made some pasta on saturday which I scoffed down greedily when I came home from work. Then yesterday I was not hungry at all. so I don't know if there is left overs or not. Anyway, I must cook something special today to celebrate my day off, lol! But what? hmmm, let me think..while thinking Im gonna finish off this post.
I wanted to share this video with you for a while but have been too busy to do so.I found Linds1986 on youtube one day and was totally amazed at how real she is, how pretty and how simple, humble yet so great at what she does.She is very informative, straight to the point, and she uses a mix of brands which is totally the kind of thing I like. I requested a look and she has done it. Check her out as she is just amazing and you will soon get addicted to her videos, so you must subscribe! She also talks about facial care, perfumes...just my kinda gurl!lol.
Here is the video...but if you can check it out on youtube, log in, rate comment and subscribe.I do not understand why most of youtube users haven't found her yet...as she is a real star. But watch out as she is sure rising, steadily with her amazing tutorials.
Check out her 'Glam' tutorial!!amazing!
Posted at 09:55 AM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
Hi everyone!
I am looking at my blog and I was quite surprised to see how irregular my updates have become nowadays. Some say I am as 'rare' as a 'diamond' these days....the simile used here was rather 'flattering' as I heard the word 'diamond', (lol) until I realised that, it was not very positive as it wasn't me who was bieng compared to a diamond, it was the 'updates' of my blog:( So sad!!
But anyway, sometimes, I wonder, why is it that when I get very busy and have no time for myself, I moan, but if I have a few days off, then I would probably complain about me being too 'sedative' and feel as though I am wasting time 'resting'. I really get confused about what I want exactly.When I complain about me being too tired ect, my husband would say: slow down, why do you work evenings or saturday?Then I would be like, I must work as it is helping me to progress career wise as I am getting trained to teach ect ect.....but on the other hand, I could do with not giving tuitions...so in the end, I do not know what is it I want, or what is it, I need...Bottom line: I think I am a confused craftytassy!
Life has been very tough and rough with me for a while. '2009' is a year I will never forget, for so many reasons. Everything in my life went wrong, everything. Most importantly, my health was a total wreck. I fell sick , one ailment after the other, some less chronic than the other, but one after the other. When I am done with one, another one pops up. At one point, I really didn't know what to do with myself, so I stopped all medication, and just lived life as it is. Obviously that was the most stupid thing I could do, so I eventually got back on track.
I am a strong believer in God and I know this is what has pulled me through all of these calamities. I felt as though I was in a neverending turmoil and there was no way out. But , when you believe in God, there is always a way out. I haven't found my way out yet, but , I know there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Relationships: I have had the worst experience ever with people I have considered my very own. I have loved and I have been betrayed. I have loved and have been hurt.I have loved and have given my heart and in return, I received nothing but pain and deception. I have believed in people I should have never even trust. I have been let down by people I have considered a friend/ a brother/a sister. So, all in all, I have learnt my lesson. When I was younger, I used to say to myself, when I will be 30, I will be wise and I will not allow anything wrong to happen to me....Well I am 32, and I am not that wise, but I have surely learnt some valuable lesson. I have now started to build a protective wall around me and I will make sure, nobody can touch my heart....to do that , they will have to crack the wall, and to be able to do that, they need to be a super human being!
Oh my God, can't I even talk about something positive today? Ive only moaned so far...moan, and moan and moan! so pathetic!But Life is about learning, its about falling and rising up. So, I have made my choice, I have fell but I will not fall again in the same way I did. I will learn from my mistakes and I will not commit the same mistakes again....(this sounds so promising, hey)
Now, let's talk about my Art and Craft. I have not been able to craft as much as I wished because of my hectic , busy lifestyle. I am the only one to be blamed for it but at the same time, I know, I will not give up on working as much as I can as I believe, I am strong enough to do as much as I am doing now. I want to do this when I can so that tomorrow I have no regrets that I didnt do the best I can when ,I could.However, I miss crafting every day. Each day that goes by, I make a mental note about my lack of creativity....And I am hoping to catch up on it. I now have something set up so my webcam is right above my working surface area! I have been wanting this for ever.I will make a video about this and hope it will help some of you out there, but there is a warning: nothing fancy as I have used regular water pipes to set thsi up!!!!Anyway, it does the work for me and I am glad about this. In fact, my husband fixed this up after two years of me nagging him about it. I stopped asking since a few months now when suddenly he got a moment of realisation that I gave up on asking him...and he decided the time has come to set it up!(weirdo!).
Now, I shall stop my chit chat as my friend is coming over and Im going to put the kettle on.Thank you to everyone who has subscribed! I have set up a system where , anyone subscribing to my blog should receive a thankyou and welcome letter from me...I hope you got it but if you haven't , well thank you again:))The readers of my blog give me all the reasons in the world, to keep blogging and keep crafting!
Take care and sending positive vibes to you all,
Tassy
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