Hey you all,
I hope that you are all keeping well. People make new resolutions at the beginning of the year - So if you did make any, how is it going so far? Are you maintaining them, or are they well out of the window? I used to make new resolutions when I was about 14-16 years old and I used to stick to them. I used to be so disciplined when I was younger and I guess it was that quality that helped me through school anyway.
But as I grew older, I am still quite strict when it comes to certain rules but, I feel that I cannot keep up with my own resolutions anymore. For whatever reasons. So, I stopped making them. However, I know in my heart , by the end of the year, what I want to stop doing and what I want to become part of my life. And I try to achieve these ideas rather than obsessing about them and then fail miserably.
This year, as some of you know, has been one of the toughest year in my life. Eight months ago, I lost my brother and today, eight months down the line, the pain is still here. If you have lost a close family member, you will know what I am talking about.But, I found my own inner strength to go on, because life goes on. And I need to look after myself, so that I can look after those around me and take care of my job, which I totally love.
Talking about taking care of myself, this is one of the things I decided to do a few years now. When I feel tired and I know my body wants to rest, I do just that : Rest.I would just relax for the day, enjoy a hot bath, read a good book, or whatever it is I have to do to feel peaceful. I am the type of a person, who , after a party , a gathering, a social dinner, needs to find peace and quiet to become myself again. When I got engaged, my dad told my inlaws this: If when she comes back from work, she disappears for a few hours, please do not mind her, she needs time to get back her balance before she can be her bubbly self again!'. At that time, I wanted the earth to open up so I could disappear forever. I was not happy about him exposing me with my future in laws but being the wise man he is, he knew that would be a wise thing to do.
Because, after I did get married, when I used to come back from work and I had to do quite a journey before I get home, I found it really hard to sit with my hushand and inlaws to chat. I needed to escape in my bedroom, but, I could not because I did not want to be rude. And soon, that stress caught up with me and I became so anxious about the whole situation. But then one day, my mother in law, reminded me that my dad did say that, that when I disappear, it simply means, I was going to unwind and relax.
And uptil now, this is exactly how I am. I wanted to change and did try, but it doesn't work. But I am so grateful that I have a husband, who, after nine years of living together, understands me perfectly. He knows when to give me my space, he knows that after a wild, busy day, I will need time to relax the next day to recover.
I am writing about all of this today to simply tell you , whoever you are, do not be afraid to be yourself. You can do things to please others, but, the most important thing you have is your 'Health', which needs to be taken care of. So, do what you must, to be in the best of health. I have finally given up on the idea to go to Gym. I am now futher away from the Gym since I have moved house, but there are some nice parks nearby where I can walk or jog. I think the best thing to do is to find a way of exercising which accomodates your daily lifestyle. If you try to go above and beyond to fit in an exercise routine ,then well, you will soon give up as there is too much effort into it. You should feel at peace with yourself when you are going out to exercise, and you should not feel like it is a chore.At least this is how I feel.
And as far as keeping a healthy diet, you should plan ahead of what you are going to have because, food, healthy ones, do not appear miraculously in your cupboard and fridge. Make a list of things you need and stock up on these. I have banned chocolate and biscuits in my house. And on those days where I crave for these things, well, tough as there are none around!
Anyway, before I sign off, I just wanted to thank you all for reading and for following my blog, twitter and youtube. I know that it feels I do not interact with you guys enough. But I read every single comment left. When it is not a busy day, I also reply to the comments left.So thank you!
I am getting ready to get back to work next week and I wish you all the best in whatever you are doing. Will chat some more next month. The focus of this month for me is: Change the things you can and forget those you can't.
What is your focus this month?
Take care
Tassy
